Breakfast with the Jansens, and then home to play and nap before Seder at Grandmom and Grandmapa's house! What an exciting day! Like, every piece of this day rocked! Until, that is...
We were through dessert, when we found out that Aiden and Jacob had gotten out of G&G's back yard! Jacob came back almost immediately, but Aiden... We looked for about three hours before we had to give up for the night. I can't even tell you how heart wrenching it is to have these types of conversations with you. You asked when Aiden was coming home and I had to tell you that he might not. You asked where he was, and I had to tell you that we had no way of knowing, and that we couldn't know if he'd be safe. You're a super sensitive little bean, and I'm not so sure that you understand death or even fully understand "bad." Having to sit in this with you sucks. It sucks cause I miss and am worried about Aiden, but holy lord do I hate the moments when I have to know that I can't protect you from everything. It makes me hate "the bad" so much more than I ever did before.
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